I have always been afraid of losing people I love, but sometimes I find myself wondering, is there anyone whos afraid of losing me too?
I wanna open up something a bit more personal. Here’s to hoping that this post would be able to at least give an insight to most of you who have been wondering all this time, why I’ve suddenly taken a long hiatus.
To start, here’s a quick throwback photo of our house and us packing our belongings.
In April 2019 Our lives were turned upside-down. We lost our home due to unforeseen circumstances. Pressed for time, we were unable to find an immediate home to move into within the City.
In the end, my folks decided to squeeze all of our belongings in an old multiplex house somewhere in Metro Manila. Sadly, one part of the multiplex had no electricity despite having somewhat of an excuse for running water.
Now, this was supposed to be a place where she could set up her office and Dental Clinic. It was a cheap place where she planned to restore some of the old wood and flooring. But that never pushed through because, as I said– due to unforeseen circumstances, the plan failed and everything came in crashing down without warning.
This was my early 30’s, it was as if my life was placed in reset, only this time I’m no longer living in the province.
As I struggled to climb back up, I found myself in refuge with a few good friends while hanging onto music as my source of strenght and guide (you could say, music is where my religion).
It was a time in my life where I thought the friends I had were the people that would be staying with me for the rest of my life. It turns out that, even those who have stuck around by your side, will still leave you without any reason. Perhaps, in another post, I might consider sharing but right now, if ever there was a reason- it wouldn’t have mattered. sometimes, relationships fall apart while others remain strong. It just means to say, as we grow into the versions of ourselves that are comfortable with who we want to become, we’ll bound to loose people along the way.
just like our old house.
and I think that’s okay.
Then the Locked Down happened. It was an epic roller coaster ride– I felt like life was just constantly trying to throw me off the railway. As the world changes, while we all struggle to find our footing in this new normal.
I’ve found myself finally jumping off-board of the BPO industry.
It was a fun ride while it lasted. My on and off relationship with the industry was just enough to carry me throughout the pandemic.
Outside of it, the real adventure begins.
coincidentally– it was also in April of this year that my folks told me that they have found a temporary home somewhere in Cavite.
I have found myself at crossroads. It was between the decision to hang on to my own space in Metro Manila or packing up my bags and moving to the outskirts of the City and recuperate.
You could probably guess where the decision led me to. While there is still the occasional chaos and my mental health suffering from time to time. The decision was worth the sacrifice.
I have been reunited with my books and I was able to Purchase my PC UNIT and Laptop to support me for my Work at Home adventures. I’ve managed to enroll myself back in college and as well as meet new people that would contribute to my growth as a person.
I hope this post inspires you to carry on despite the adversity.
There are still a lot of things I’d like to share. But, I’ll reserve that for another time.
Thank you for letting me once again write to you all of you a piece of my life, and for supporting me still. If you have been reading my post up to this very day. Thank you for your time and patience.
I won’t disappoint you. I’ll carry on and continue to live my life even when it’s crumbling into pieces.
let’s try to survive and live our lives to the fullest.
As the count down to the end of 2021 begins this evening.
I’ll reserve my greetings on my next post after this.